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[Apr. 8th, 2008|09:40 am] |
1 Ei Vuvara sòbore vi ei Atosa vikaresir kunion lonar kèmate, cunom samasive nagèi doramos tilegom esa panovorai tarua.
2 Muyu sèdollenir so on leyètu kune dzalakañir esa visarana an samasivem suksadu panovoris arya lenir meletenir kèmate av aine radalei.
3 Ei Vuvara sòbore vuruches tas radedis, sel vi mazhoves tas vuruches, tadate kames an samasivem puthes me panovoris saner mam;
4 Vi telikos ei Vuvara sòbore sarzhanesir on dumalom. Ei Atosa pilo divates tarus, vi jatitis an samasivem suksadea me panovorai.
5 Ner ei Vuvara sòbore rikinelònir prati sa ei Atosa lòn onus kèmali.
1 The North Wind and the Sun were disputing which was the stronger, when a traveler came along wrapped in a warm cloak.
2 They agreed that the one who first succeeded in making the traveler take his cloak off should be considered stronger than the other.
3 Then the North Wind blew as hard as he could, but the more he blew the more closely did the traveler fold his cloak around him;
4 and at last the North Wind gave up the attempt. Then the Sun shined out warmly, and immediately the traveler took off his cloak.
5 And so the North Wind was obliged to confess that the Sun was the stronger of the two. |
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| Hubert proved that there is no such thing as logic |
[Sep. 21st, 2006|02:11 pm] |
I said this to Harvey and probably bored him to tears because of it, but I absolutely *love* my philosophy class. It's called "Reasoning and Critical Thinking", and I just love it. A couple reasons why.
First of all, it's new material. Most of the last couple of years I have only done math and science. With the exception of one class (two, but it's the same thing, just different semesters) that was pretty much all of my last two years. In this class, I am actually learning new material. When it comes to math and sicnece, I have a habit of learning in advance, by looking through Wikipedia, my textbooks, and the like when I am curious - due to this, it is extremely rare that class suprises me with something new. Not this class - I do not know a thing about philosophy, and it is incredibly refreshing to learn something new. While I'm not going to obviously plan to be a philosopher, it's just fascinated learning something new for once. Most important, however, is that I enjoy it - this course isn't one of those heavy deep, "what is the meaning of life?" courses; instead, it focuses on something extremely practical - arguments.
The teacher is awesome. He's casual with the class, and extremely funny - blunt, sarcastic, social, comfortable with the material and class, quick - PRH, all the qualities of what a college professor should have, but almost never does. Probably the most notable example of his hilariousness is a running gag he has done; in an example for a non-logically strong argument, he said: "(Α) President Shirley Strum Kenny had a fountain built outside of her office building. (B) President Kenny likes fountains." Each day he has a slide of her plus a fountain in it, showing it only for a split second, making the entire class laugh because of its absurdity. As well, the first day and days following it, he spent a whole section on explaining why people *shouldn't* take the course, (Since this is a DEC, required for completing college and the like) how it can be very tough, as well as dry and boring sometimes, and that there are plenty of other courses that fulfill the DEC without the huge about of work. He also explained how the course isn't the stereotypical deep philosophy course, being more rigorous and the like. Quite a few people left in class in the first day when they realized, and he pretty much made fun of them as they left. (Well, pointed out when they left, told them good job, and said that they were making a rational decision)
As well, he's a great person to talk to, as well. I've had questions regarding the material and he's helped answer stuff to me that I havn't found a good answer for myself before. Plus, he said that if a person manages to burn an image into his neural network (his words), participating in class, passionate about the material and the like, he will give that person up to 10 extra points in the course. Well, that's pretty much what I have done to almost every teacher I've had - I guess I'm innately a teacher's pet or something. Of course, it goes the opposite way as well - people disrupting the class, or never coming to class except the final, et cetera. I think that's a very good incentive for this class, especially since class participation is really critical. as well, he said that he hates deep philosophy questions (e.g. "what is love?") and ethics, due to being so arbitary and such, which pleases me because I'm the same way.
Another huge bonus in the class - NO WRITING WOOHOO! Sure there's a lot of reading (As I had expected) and vocabulary, but the point is that I don't have to write! This is a luxury that I would have thought was impossible in a course like this.
Probably the only snag is the material for the homework - an online quiz that, when open, must be completed at that time. I find it annoying, personally - the Blackboard quiz system is not the best; there are plenty of other ways to make online homework/quizzes, but if this is the only true snag, then that's it. Of course, the other snag is probably the fact that I'm a science person, and not much of a philosophy person - I'm not used to digesting subjects such as rhetoric and semantics. So this course might not be an A even if I try my best, normally a given for my other courses when I use my full potential. Oh well; there's always the full letter grade bonus, which I'm going to try my hardest to do. |
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| Realizations of epiphanies don't happen every day |
[Sep. 19th, 2006|11:45 am] |
I have finally realized something very important about myself - something that other people knew, my teachers knew, my parents knew, but I didn't know myself.
I am both a genius and a moron at the same time.
I have almost unlimited intellectual potential. This is why I am a genius. However, I am a moron because I do not realize this potential - I am an underachiever. This frustrates me, as for the most part I have only realized the latter, not the former.
It's really odd, and probably considered arrogant if you think about it, but it's the truth. If I could friggin' stop being an underachiever somehow and realize my potential, then I can control my destiny. (...sorry, couldn't help it.)
...speaking of which, isn't "epitome" a synonym of "quintessense?" Hmm... *plots*
...and why does it show "Update captain's log" instead of "Save entry" for new entries? o_O
A more important question: Does anyone here use any student planner software? (For homework and the like?) Any particular software that you would reccommend me? |
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| Note to people |
[Sep. 17th, 2006|09:17 am] |
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I have quit micronations. This means that I have no more interest in talking about the subject anymore. With the exception of anything to do with the Control of Destiny series, Soloralism, pre-fall-of-Menelmacar Micras, and possibly my former micronationalist friends, I want nothing to do with it. Any comments to me on AIM/MSN about, for example, about how Shireroth is falling, or how that new map program is better than the MCS or whatever, will only be met by me ignoring the subject, and if it constantly happens, by me placing you on my ignore list. Micronations is dead for me - anything about micronations, say, pre-Menelmacar, I will completely ignore.
This is your only warning. I don't care about Shireroth, and I especially don't care about the non-Shireroth micronationalist world today, which, as I said in a previous post, I have developed the same hatred for it as I did for Tymaria. Micronations had only been a waste of time in my life with a few exceptions. |
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| Control of Destiny |
[Sep. 14th, 2006|12:06 pm] |
I feel better now. Well, relieved is probably a better word. After I went to the Physics advisor yesterday, he pretty much repeated what my academic advisor told me - I would pretty much be wasting my time in BME if I just made the switch. He was in a meeting at the time, and I was talking to him on the phone, so he and I scheduled a meeting for today.
Today I talked to him. As Moose suggested, (Thank you moose, but my parents gave the same advise :p) the advice the advisor gave was this: Continue BME. Take some Physics courses when I get the chance and free time in my schedule. (None will fit this semester anyway) Take my time and after a course, minor in it. During the summer, take an internship in BME, and the summer after that, in Physics, to see what I like better. If I like physics enough, then I can double major in it - this has the *huge* advantage of not having to take the extra DECs required in the College of Arts and Sciences, as I would still be in the College of Engineering and Applied Sciences.
So it would be the best of both worlds, and would turn out to be a huge advantage for me. Double majoring in Biomedical Engineering and Physics, regardless of what I go into, would be a huge boost for my resume. The only downside is that I'll have to stay in undergraduate college longer (He estimated six instead of the regular four), but I think that's worth it, especially to learn more physics and math, probably my most major gripe in BME. So, as Erik would say, I am pleased.
Some S.P.A.M. stuff now.
- The dwarf planet formerly known as Xena has an offical name, Eris, with its moon called Dysnomia, after the goddesses of strife and lawlessness, respectively. (Dysnomia being Eris' daughter) I can here Scott, Archetype, and the other Discordians of the world giggling with glee with this news. Fnord.
- Speaking of dwarf planets, the California legislature has condemned the decision to demote Pluto to a dwarf planet. What does California think it is with its pointless legislature, Shireroth!?
- I just found this in Wikipedia: Lamest edit wars, describing varaious lame edit wars in Wikipedia. Of note to us, of course, is the edit war over the micronations article, which, as it has so succintly put, "Two self-proclaimed leaders of micronations in a lengthy revert war in this and other articles about the comparative value and notability of their made-up countries." There are plenty of other hilarious edit wars there, too. Logically, including one about the article for what to put for the lamest edit wars. |
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| (no subject) |
[Sep. 13th, 2006|12:05 pm] |
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Stupid stupid stupid stupid. My procrastination has only affected my entire life this time. FRIGGIN BLAH.
After a long term of soul searching, I've decided to change my major to Physics - or at least research what I need. The biggest problem? Quite literally, most of the courses I've taken would be a WASTE! I'd have to take far more than the regular four years of undergraduate college because I've decided to make this decision so late! I mean, I'm a junior - I should have made this at thge most in Sophomore year. The only courses that I would be able to keep are my math courses, and some of my DEC requirements, but even so, that means I have to take MORE DECs (Because I would be switching from the College of Engineering and Applied Sciences to the College of Arts and Sciences) including language, of all things... And then there is always in the glooming past the fact that Physics is far less prestigious than Biomedical Engineering.
Yet Physics is what I love, I have been convinced, but yet AGAIN I have no plan for my future and by the time I decide to actually make a decision, it's too late because of my own procrastination. This is stupid. Stupid of myself, stupid of life. I really *wish* I had a time-travelling machine so that I could go in the past. Heck, not even that. Why am I even doing this? BME may not be my passion, but regardless I am capable of doing it. I seriously don't see why BME is seen to be so mujch more prestigious than Physics, godsdammit, especially since it will probably have less mathematical requirements than Physics. It's stupid. As well, my Dad will still be pissed at me - mind you, not as pissed as a guy who switched from BME to, say, Music - but pissed nonetheless because I am changing so late, or heck, even changing at all, because he wishes for me to be succesful in life.
I'm so confused, angry, stressed, everything over this. All my depression and worthlessness, or not even the negatives - my purpose in life, will come up in importance to the moment that I will have to finally make the decision. Will I major in Physics, minor in BME, or discard BME altogether? Continuing majoring in BME and minoring in Physics? Continuing my current track and go into physics in graduate school? I have no friggin' clue what to do, but regardless I will probably be in school for the next 10 years or so anyway.
In other news, micronations suck. I've become extremely releaved since I quit. Free time and all, I can sleep normal hours, nothing to worry about other than homework and offline games... You know, unfortuanatly what actually caused my quitting was actually the trip to California. Oddly enough, even though I liked it at first, I realized that I was alone there. While you guys would probably say "No you weren't, Bill!", I will tell you that I was. I rarely talked to anyone there, and all I did was embarass myself in front of other people because of my various oddities and awkwardness because of my innate immaturity caused by my Aspergers.
The problem with micronations is that other than micronations, most of the people there - I have nothing in common with. My major hobbies nowadays is physics and Control of Destiny / Soloralism and stuff. I don't even know if I've talked much about physics to anyone, either. Regardless, probably the only person I could have considered a close friend, Scott, pretty much ignored me the entire time. I was a third wheel on the trip, and that's what pretty much told me to give up. Besides, most of the people that we met had already quit Shireroth and micronations. There's nothing to talk to them about outside of that! I can't talk to Harvey about micronations today, at least not seriously, as he's quit, other than how, for example, Shireroth sucks or something like that. It's dumb that an entire period of seven years in my life had been a complete and utter waste of time. The only thing I've gotten out of it was Control of Destiny, as well as Harvey and Moose. I rarely talk to anyone else, anyway. Oh, let's forget about micronations outside of Shireroth. I basically feel the same way about them as I did in Tymaria - the entire "screw you all" type of thing, as opposed to Shirerorth where I had felt like I was a failure, as well as a person who didn't ultimately fit in.
Meh, whatever. I will have to do my homework, and talk to a physics advisor about what classes I will have to take and the like if I switch majors, and my career path and the like. Heck, I probably will have to change my classes this year, which means that I won't have a lot of time to do it, as the time limit to drop classes ends on the 17th. |
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[Aug. 11th, 2006|01:09 am] |
So, I abdicated. I'm a failure.
...why do I even use this livejournal anymore, anyway? Not like anyone really cares or comments about it.
In other news, happy birthday to me. 20 years old now. Still feel and act like 12. |
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| Blame Jadie |
[Jul. 9th, 2006|10:19 pm] |
(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)
| ✓ I miss somebody right now. (Everyone, I guess) |
✓ I don't watch much TV these days. |
× I own lots of books. |
| × I wear glasses or contact lenses. |
✓ I love to play video games. |
× I've tried marijuana. |
| ✓ I've watched porn movies. (meh) |
× I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. |
✓ I believe honesty is usually the best policy. (My honesty hurts me sometimes) |
| ✓ I curse sometimes. |
× I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. (I wish :/) |
× I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me. |
( it goes on... ) |
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[Jun. 28th, 2006|02:27 pm] |
Back from California. Well, two days ago, I guess, but I slept all day... again, yesterday. I swear that I am actually on California time. I feel much better now, and the vacation was probably my best of all time. I just hope thaty I can talk with people more often online, which I need to smack my head for not doing.
Pictures! I got a good amount of my pictures uploaded. Here they are. Some of them were crappy, so I didn't bother uploading them. ...stupid thumb. I also had some pictures left when I got home, so there's some pictures of my home in there as well. |
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| I don't suck as much! |
[May. 21st, 2006|09:50 pm] |
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AMS 210 (Applied Linear Algebra) = A-
BME 212 (Biomed Engrng Rsch Fundamentls) = A-
ESE 271 (Electrical Circuit Analysis I) = B+
ESG 111 (C Progrmng for Engnrs) = A
MEC 262 (Engineering Dynamics) = B+
GPA for this semester: 3.580
I still could have done much better. With the possible exception of Dynamics, all of those courses could have been easy A+'s. My indifferentness and lack of interest to school still exists, unfortuanatly, so I still suck at life. But it's good news for my mother, as she can sleep better now. As well, I can go to California - I was afraid that if I had bad grades, I would not be allowed to go to Califorina.
Hilariously, in MEC 262, that was hugely curved. I am suprised that was curved at all, because I would have sworn that the teacher said that it was not going to be curved. Either that or I just assumed it from his personality. Still, you have to admit a class average of 40.4 is pretty pathetic. I only got a ~71, and that is because I suck and didn't do all the homework, and didn't study. But then again, I never study. I could do so much better if I tried, but I don't feel the motivation to try. Gah. |
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[May. 17th, 2006|04:06 am] |
I don't know if Fax would read this or not (I honestly don't care anymore - he's banned, anyway), but he is not welcome at ShireCon, lest his time (and probably everyone's time) to be absolutely miserable. He is offically dead to me. Nor is he welcome back in Shireroth as well as I am still here. He's just lucky that I'm nice enough to not remove his legacy on the nation. Which honestly sounds like a better idea every day.
I can honestly say that both of them need to shrivel and die. I don't care about his friendship anymore. In fact, I don't really think he was my friend in the first place, considering the fact that he never respected me. |
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[May. 10th, 2006|12:08 am] |
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Huh. Kaiser'd. Never actually thought this would happen. |
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| I hate to do the stereotypical LJ post, but I have no choice |
[May. 7th, 2006|03:49 pm] |
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Urgh. I don't really focus on the "my life is worthless" part of my life right now, but right now I just feel crappy about life. In particular, I don't find anything fun. I don't even find wasting time fun. It really sucks. I can't find any inspiration in my hobbies that much, and I feel like just doing the hobbies because I can, and just because I want to waste time. Playing video games doesn't help either. In short, life sucks and I don't know what to do about it. It's not quite full blown depression, but it probably still counts as depression. I dunno. Include the fact that my body is aching all over and I get tired all the time just when I need to work or do something productive, and you have a really frustrated me. |
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| Odd fact of the day |
[Apr. 29th, 2006|04:26 pm] |
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The Golden Ratio (1.618...) is equal to -2*sin(666 degrees).
THE GOLDEN RATIO IS THE SINE OF EVIL! |
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| Black holes suck. |
[Apr. 25th, 2006|11:55 am] |
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Still feel worthless. My mom had the nerve to ask me "What's wrong? Are you feeling depressed?" the other day. (the day I wrote that last entry) Of course it was HER yelling that made me feel worthless in the first place. Reason why is that I asked my professor if there were any research spots, and he said something akin to that it's too late and for the summer. So she basically yelled at me about how I never take initiative in anything and how that is going to seriously affect my career. She said that I can't simply be crwled up in my room for the rest of the life, despite the fact that oddly enough, that's all I really want to do. I'm too scared to do anything else, really. Even the Shirecon that might be coming up (Someone please tell me it will be more organized than the East Coast one) I'm frightened to go to. I mean I don't even know how to drive, let alone be alone by myself in a state where I have never been before. However, despite the concerns of my dad, my mom gave the okay. Problem is that it's not $99 as Scott said it would be, but $300. Oh well, there goes my chance of getting a new computer.
Then again, the reason why I can't get enough money is because I simply don't work enough. But I absolutely hate my job. I work at CVS as a cashier once a week on Sundays, for five hours, and it gives me enough stress (physical and mental) already. Partly because of someone who works there who seems to make it his job to piss me off. Also just because I can't friggin sit down there. Five hours of standing up is extremely hard work for me.
Shireroth is sucking now again. Fax left, claiming disinterest, although I know that it's only because Val convinced him that it was a waste of time. Delphi got on a not guilty because of not enough evidence. Steven is currently screaming at me right now about how the evidence was obvious. I didn't even think that it was obvious - the reason why I didn't want a trial in the first place was because there wasn't enough evidence.
So yeah, I don't feel good right now. My hobby, job, attempts at my life all crappy, school is mediocre and not really fun. I can't think of anything fun to do really, anyway, and it sucks even more that I rarely have anyone to talk to. I rarely can talk to the retired micronationalists anyway because the only interest that I had with them was micronations! Urgh. |
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[Apr. 18th, 2006|04:18 pm] |
I'm sad. And by what I mean by "sad", I mean I realise that I honestly have no purpose in life. I friggin act and do things that I should have done five years ago, if not less. I'm 19 and I don't have a driver's license. Never had a girlfriend or rarely even any friends. Most importantly, I never really wanted college, never really wanted a major, never really wanted to do research. It's not a matter of an alternative, it's a matter of me never having initiative. I can't see myself doing anything other than what I do now, just sitting in front in the computer. And frankly, I have always been too scared to change, and this time is no different. How am I useful to society? I'm not, nor do I seem to have any intention to change that. By my own ideological system I should be killed because I am worthless. I am a complete and utter underachiever - underachiever is probably not even a good enough word to describe how much of an underachiever I am. I don't have any good qualities or anything.
Why do I even live anymore? Even when my parents try to help, I just push everything off, too afraid or too lazy or whatever to do anything. I just want to exist, and I don't even think that's worth the merit to do. I'm a completely waste of useful organic compounds, and I don't see how, or even if I should, change that.
Fuck the world. I never asked to exist, I never asked to be part of society, or be a human. |
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